I had a dream last night …

2010 January 3
by Paul
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… that we were floating in space, connected to each other by only a thin umbilical cord. The cord snapped and I began to drift away from you. I was helpless. I tried to swim back to you but in the frictionless vacuum of space, I was only flailing and spinning.

Suddenly I became aware that I was carrying a lot of stuff in my arms. Whatever these things were, they were dear to me and I didn’t want to give them up. But my despair grew as I drifted farther away from you. Finally I lifted a parcel over my head and heaved it away from me. My departure from you slowed ever so slightly.

Encouraged, I lifted another item high over my head and shoved it away into the blackness. Looking back, I noticed that I had stopped moving away from you. Now I began enthusiastically throwing away these dear things, watching them float away in the opposite direction as I picked up velocity toward you.

I began to weep as the distance between us closed. At last I was left with a lone package in my arms. My dearest possession. I hesitated, realizing that it wasn’t necessary to release this package in order to reach you. All it would do is further increase my velocity.

I strengthened my resolve and shoved this last parcel away into infinity just before you embraced me and I felt more whole than I knew was possible.

Then I woke up.

Dear Firefox

2009 December 9
by Paul
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First of all, it’s not you, it’s me. Actually, it’s another browser. You see, Google Chrome has extensions now and … It’s just that, you’re not the browser I used to know. You were so revolutionary, so fast and carefree. You opened my eyes to what a browser can be after a long abusive relationship with Internet Explorer. But now it’s like every time I bring home a little extra memory, you gobble it up and I’m stuck watching the pages load.

I hope we can remain friends. I still really like you. I just need a change of scenery.

You’ll always be my first true browser.

Belonging to Jesus: a prayer for the ages

2009 November 4
by Paul
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Through a series of fortunate circumstances, I recently discovered a collection of Puritan prayers in a book entitled The Valley of Vision: A Collection of Puritan Prayers & Devotions. The power of these prayers–though humble and unadorned–rivals the elegant and painstakingly crafted catechisms of the early church, and both now have a welcome niche in my thought-life. Today I’d like to share my favorite here, entitled “Belonging to Jesus.”

O HEAVENLY FATHER,
Teach me to see
that if Christ has pacified Thee and satisfied divine justice,
He can also deliver me from my sins;
that Christ does not desire me, now justified,
to live in self-confidence and in my own strength,
but gives me the law of the Spirit of Life, to enable me to obey Thee;
that the Spirit and His power are mine by resting on Christ’s  death;
that the Spirit of Life within answers to the law without;
that if I sin not I should thank Thee for it;
that if I sin I should be humbled daily under it;
that I should mourn for sin more than other men do,
for when I see I shall die because of sin that makes me mourn;
when I see how sin strikes at Thee, that makes me mourn;
when I see that sin caused Christ’s death, that makes me mourn;
that sanctification is the evidence of reconciliation,
proving that faith has truly apprehended Christ;
Thou hast taught me
that faith is nothing else than receiving Thy kindness;
that it is an adherence to Christ, a resting on Him,
love clinging to Him as a branch to the tree, to seek life and vigour from Him.
I thank Thee for showing me the vast difference between knowing things by reason,
and knowing them by the spirit of faith.
By reason I see a thing is so; by faith I know it as it is.
I have seen Thee by reason and have not been amazed,
I have seen Thee as Thou art in the Son and have been ravished to behold Thee!
I bless Thee that I am Thine in my Savior, Jesus.

So wait … you don’t like NASCAR?

2009 November 3
by Paul
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You may have heard me refer to myself as a “high tech redneck” and wondered what the heck that means. I’m here now to hopefully clear up some confusion as to what the label means, as I see it.
I like to work with my hands. Splitting wood, working on my old pickup truck, building a bookshelf, you get the idea.
I like living in the country and I like the emphasis that people “out here” place on family and community. I also like the focus on “traditional values.” Note, however, that I don’t necessarily cling to the “real ‘Mericans are Republicans who distrust minorities, favor bombing other countries for any and all reasons, and always buy Chevys” ideals upheld by some of my brethren. I favor Formula One over NASCAR, and I don’t think God needed a driver.
I think activities like hunting and fishing, done right, breed a respect and intimacy with the earth and its inhabitants that people concerned about “cruelty to animals” and “senseless killing” will probably never understand (and no, at this writing I have never been hunting–yet).
On the other hand, I love technology, although I tend to take a rather grassroots approach to it. I’d much rather “home brew” a gadget or other solution to a tech problem than go out and buy the latest “thing.” I love progressive ideas and changing the rules of the game when it comes to technology and progress.
I often find myself stuck in the gap between self sufficiency and interconnection. There’s a disconnect sometimes between the expansionary forces involved in emerging platforms like Twitter, and the stripped down, subsistence-based pioneer ethos. So, being a high tech redneck is about the balancing act between these two (apparently) disparate paradigms.
Enough about me. Write a comment and tell me what you think.

A safe place

2009 November 2
by Paul
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If you have kids, you inevitably have to deal with it. Call it what you will: the bogeyman, the dark, monsters under the bed. Fear plays a big role in kids’ lives. Eventually they reach a point where they’re conscious that we’re not OK and things can go wrong, and that’s scary.

At our house, it shows up around bedtime every night. “Daddy, I don’t want to be alone,” says my four-year-old daughter. I always explain that we are all in our home and it’s a safe place. Nothing can harm us when we’re here. I also point out that I will always do everything in my power to protect her, and that God tells us that he is always watching over us.

As I thought about that child-like, “irrational” fear, I realized that we never really gets rid of it. No matter how old we are, we always struggle with some kind of fear.  What we need to remember is that we are in a safe place. Our father is always watching over us and he will do everything in his power to protect us.

NaBloPoMo

2009 November 1
by Paul
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November 1 marks the start of NaBloPoMo (National Blog Post Month), where the goal is to make (at least) one blog post each day for 30 days. After nearly being preempted by my hosting provider, I’m here to throw may hat in the ring. I’ve been beating myself up lately about neglecting this blog, so this is an opportunity to get into the good habit of establishing a connection between the cloud of ideas and opinions in my head and the output of Ridiculosity.

P.S. Wanna help out? If you read this blog, and especially if you like what you read, leave a comment, tweet or retweet a link, or post a Facebook link. There’s nothing like positive reinforcement to help establish a new habit! Thanks!

The craft

2009 October 8
by Paul
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Have you ever observed a skilled craftsman practice his trade? Someone like a woodworker who is highly experienced in his craft has worked for years as an apprentice and a journeyman to earn the title “master.”

Recently, as I sat in traffic on my commute home from work, I watched several drivers zipping down the shoulder to get ahead of other drivers as a red light turned green. Those of us who were patient and law-abiding had to wait a bit longer while these renegades incorporated themselves into the traffic ahead.

In addition to making me annoyed, that got me thinking. Why shouldn’t I do that too? What does it matter? I would arrive home a few minutes earlier and what are these poor saps going to do about it? Crash into me?

I continued that thread, answering my own questions. I don’t do the “right thing” behind the wheel because it’s the law and I’m afraid I’ll get a ticket, or because I’m a goody two-shoes, or even because I necessarily care what other drivers think about my actions. I do the right thing because as a driver I want to be the best I can be–even if it means driving a little slower, waiting a little longer, or showing a little more courtesy. This sounds a little lame, but bear with me here: when it comes to the “craft” of driving, I want to be a master.

As I pondered these things, I recalled something I read in the book Blue Like Jazz: Nonreligious Thoughts on Christian Spirituality:

…I realized I was not alone in my surroundings. I’m not talking about ghosts or angels or anything; I’m talking about other people. As silly as it sounds, I realized … that other people had feelings and fears and that my interactions with them actually meant something, that I could make them happy or sad in the way that I associated with them. Not only could I make them happy or sad, but I was responsible for the way I interacted with them. I suddenly felt responsible. I was supposed to make them happy. I was not supposed to make them sad. (p. 9)

Donald Miller has neatly defined narcissism for us. At best, narcissism sees other people as means to an egocentric end. At worst, other people are simply obstacles to be overcome in achieving that end. It describes, I think, a great deal about the human condition. It explains why people do things the way they do: drive, serve, vote, worship, talk, consume goods, … on and on. Our human nature, left unchecked, demands that we look out for number one above all else, even if the result casts away the opportunity to make a positive impact on people. When we heed the tyranny of our ego, we become slaves to ourselves. Our knowledge of the elegant and gracious craft of humanity grows dim.

Moments later, I had broken free of the grinding traffic and cruised along the winding country roads that lead home. I continued to flesh out my new notion of the “craft of humanity.” What would a “master” in the craft of humanity look like? Naturally, my mind settled on the one I call “Master.” Jesus set the example for us as humans. He wandered the hills of Palestine, a perfect example of humanity, the likes of which Earth had not seen for thousands of years.

I am his apprentice, striving to match his example, taking instruction from him as he guides my hand at the chisel and the plane. Together we’re working on my life: shaping, cutting away, transforming the flaws into unique characteristics that exhibit the craftsmanship that only Jesus posesses for changing lives. He is, after all, the master carpenter.

So in the intervening time since this interior discourse, I’ve made an effort to follow Jesus’s example and be intentional in my relationships and impact people in a positive way. Even if it means simply waving another driver in front of me, it gives me an opportunity to humble myself and consider the needs, wants, and feelings of others. The result is sometimes surprising: people smile, wave, and even return the favor.

Advice for a novice tweeter, from an amateur tweeter

2009 August 5
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This was originally written to a Facebook friend who recently started tweeting. It’s an amalgamation of thoughts that have been floating around in my head for a while.

It takes a while to find your “niche” on Twitter (both your “voice”–what you write and share, and your “ears”–who you follow). Stick with it and try some different things. Look for people who are interested in the same things as you, or who have things to say that you’re interested in hearing. You’ll find that people will begin to reciprocate and follow you. 140 character limitation aside, Twitter is blogging and blogging is writing and writing takes practice. If you don’t like the way it sounds, try again until you find an authentic point of view that enriches your relationships.

As an aside, resist the urge to use a tool that syncs your tweets with your FB status or vice versa. I find that it ends up short-changing either “followers” or “friends” (or both). There are times that I update or share something on both at once, but as a rule I use them independently. Above all, do what works for you while striving to “create more value than you capture,” as Tim O’Reilly says.
Here are some links that may help you get started on Twitter, all written by Michael Hyatt on his blog:

Answers to Top 10 Twitter Objections

12 Reasons to Start Twittering

The Beginner’s Guide to Twitter

Twitter: bringing adult relationships to the web

2009 August 5
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An article on Mashable today shows that according to a Nielsen study, Twitter’s growth can’t be attributed to those younger than 25.  Implications of this are manifold, but the first thing that came to mind is the fact that Twitter, like “real life,” in-person relationships, is sometimes hard work.

Twitter resonates with people who are more comfortable in their position in society and  are looking for meaningful relationships through which valuable content is exchanged.  Twitter is an ongoing conversation. What’s been said is water under the bridge. The focus is on moving the conversation forward and collaborating to create value and meaning by sharing information.

By contrast, Facebook provides a way to create a static view into your life. You can carefully select quotes, interests, links, and photos that reflect exactly what you want your friends to see. You can even tailor your friend list to control exactly who you associate with and who can see your meticulously manicured online identity. When it comes down to it, Facebook becomes an exercise in creating a self that you want others to see,  rather than one of finding meaning through relationships with others.

Twitter more closely emulates real life relationships. The focus is more on content. What you say and how you say it has a lot of influence on how you fit into the social landscape. Being a professional writer, I frequently tell my colleagues and friends that Twitter is a lot of fun because every update is an exercise in careful editing as you choose which 140 characters you’ll use to convey information.

Followers and followed come and go on Twitter as we search for meaningful relationships and useful information. Facebook is a popularity contest. The more friends you have, the bigger the audience to watch as you tweak your profile into the envy of your friends.

New WordPress and new theme

2009 June 18
by Paul
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I upgraded to WordPress 2.8 and added a new theme. The coolest thing about 2.8 is the ability to add themes and plugins directly withing WordPress.

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